If it was physical it would have been okay
If it was sexual it would have been okay
See this pain is emotional
It resides from inside
Heartbroken
Mind gone
I don’t know what to do
If it was physical abuse it would have been okay
If it was sexual abuse it would have been okay
Emotional abuse we don’t see like that
Maybe it’s the pigment of my skin
Or the origins of my past
I cried and I cried
I’ve tried and I’ve tried
This ain’t even a cry for help no more
Because all your going to do
Is tell me that’s how it is
Skeletons in the closet
I guess it ain’t worth opening up
But if I talk about this pain
And the fact I won’t commit
It’s a madness
Blood spatter
It’s a cold world dawg
I feel this pain
I wanna die
It’s a cold world dawg
I can say a lot
But not a lot
Because this is how you made me
Last time I trust that nigga he played me
In your mind it’s just a fabulous life
I’m an OG in this game but yet a young mother fucker
That line flipping hurts me I don’t know what to do
Can’t tell you why either
Coz If it was physical it would have been okay
If it was sexual it would have been okay
See this pain is emotional
It’s resides from inside
So if I tell you
I’m literally ripping my heart out
Cut myself the other day I didn’t even fucking care
I knew it was gonna happen
It wasn’t even a mare
But the state I’m in
I’m in a crazy little pickle
A love like no other
Unconditional it should be
Emotionally it’s not
So the classic line
“That’s just how it is”
Plays in my mind
Plenty of times
Over again
And over again
That’s why I picked up my pen
Let out my depression
See a black man in counselling
That shit ain’t right
But if we can’t have a grown ass conversation
Why the fuck I need you for
Oh yeah I know we really poor
Why you think I’m trapping for
Don’t you know that life’s insane
Crazy in fact
Truth is I never thanked you
I gots to thank 2
If it was physical it would have been okay
If it was sexual it would have been okay
See this pain is emotional
It’s resides from inside
Memories fade over time
So much pain cuts the line
Eli thoughts
Thinking of snowfall in this mother fucker
Can’t take command it’s a dangerous life to live
Couldn’t risk having a wife and kids
The fallacies that come in
Heartbreaking when your at a cross road
Excruciating pain
I can’t even admit
I’m sick to my lip
By a boy that she thought she could trust
IPA brew dog on the side
Reminiscing on the old days
By the time I started listening to this you said Real bought Ronaldo
Some crazy times
I did some shit
O silly shit
Quinn really Shit
I’m just on me shit
O I’m gone be shit
That’s more you’ll never know shit
Bro i knew from 16 I gone be shit
To many shits for you
I couldn’t care less
Careless
I was careless
I should have cared less
Numb to the soul
Shots to the Dom
Hand to the blade
Crazy insane
It’s crazy insane
Who would have thought
To lost in thoughts
Memories fade
Patiently wait
Saviour I crave
Freedom I want
Past transgressions
My depression
Learnt some lessons
It’s a blessing
On this mission
Clear intuition
No need for a smith Weston
If it was physical it would have been okay
If it was sexual it would have been okay
See this pain is emotional
It resides from inside
Every moment I cry
Is like a wasted line
Wasting time
Wait in line
Wait your turn
3rd in line
Defunct effect
Different guy
Diligent mind
Stories to tell
Stuck in this realm
Impulsive I go
Feeling this pain
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