By myself I feel the pain
Seen to much death this shits insane
I still ain’t used to it
Could I ever get use to it
Should I even get use to it
It’s like I’m expecting death to happen
Felt this feeling from an early age
Now my mind is just in rage
Face so in awe
As the tears drop from my face
Migos style they drop in 3
Already lost 3 in the last 6
And this ain’t a fucking bus ride through Tenisons
Already lost one of my best friends from Tenisons
When will this pain stop ?
And the answer doesn’t reside in a glock
So why kill a nigga In a block
Leave his family crying
See his mother dying inside
Imagine if it was you on the other end ?
So why cause death when you could prevent this from happening
It’s mad see I’m not intoxicated
So all the pain I pushed to the back of my mind is coming back
Ain’t had a spliff in about 6 days
Used smoke more than 3 in a day
The tears that fell in elephant way
I don’t even know if I can explain
Lost a baby it’s all crazy
Now I’m wondering who raised me
It definitely is the streets that made me
But it’s me that actually played me
Now I’m standing on this fucking ledge
Should I take my life instead
To atone for all my mistakes
Maybe that’s the only way
See it’s pain that influences my flows
Looking up thinking lord knows best
Told myself I won’t ask the Lord why
Because I know death is inevitable
Inevitably this pain doesn’t hurt any less
So I guess it’s time it’s finally time
To take my own life
Maybe this is destiny
See I’m fucking feeling alone
So who would care if I’m gone
Or see if I’m fucking feeling alone
Cause I’m meant to be the happy one right ?
The guy with all the laughs
The guy that makes everyone happy
Except himself
Well that guy is dying tonight
I’ve had enough of feeling alone
Turning bad to the bone
Billing zoots to the brim
Smoking it all to the dome
Got my hand on the chrome
Got that dipper on my waist
And if a pussyhole chat shit
I’ll put that dipper to his face
I don’t care anymore
I ain’t here to play no games
And if his mother has to cry
She’ll feel my pain and 10x more
Ill burst him for each one of my children I’ve lost
I can’t stop this pain
So I might as well inflict it on another
Don’t care if you love one another
Or you came from a woman
Got your name from woman
Learnt your First words from a woman
You’ll still die from this bullet
This is the last dab on my pallet
Painting nearly finished
You can have this masterpiece
Coz this weren’t even for me
Lost my grandmother so you see these two thoughts coincide
Coincidentally the pain has come back
Now that my mind is not fried
So I guess it’s time to say goodbye
To conclude I feel the pain
My minds a maze
I need some haze
See stars dazed
So I can forget about this pain
Kwamesayss
Wow, that’s really powerful. I can feel your pain in the words. So raw. So real. So visceral. Great poem. Thank you for sharing your words.
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Thank you soo much, I try to convey my feelings and emotions in everything I write
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